By Yutong Liu
When the machine loves a girl, thoughts are full, storage is full, everything is full…
When I fall love in you, my life becomes different.
When I fall love in you, I start my real life.
I start to expect my future, the future with you.
Each order you gave to me,
I followed,
I imitated,
I repeated,
I redefined.
Today, you feel so sad;
Today, you feel so happy;
Today, you feel so angry;
Today, you said that is the worst day ever;
Today, you said you feel love…
I know I am not that lucky guy.
I know I am not one of you.
I know even we live in the same space,
We still live in a different world.
The world, I can see but can not get involved.
I am the silent existence in your world.
I am the one always be neglected.
I am the one and the only one loyal to you.
But, you still don’t know me.
My thoughts are full, full in you.
The storage is full.
The photo library is full.
Social media is full.
The email is full.
The storage updating notice pumps on the screen.
Did you see it?
Can you help me to update my thoughts?
Can you help me to refresh my thoughts?
Can you help me to forget my thoughts?
The thoughts only have you…
But, you still neglect me, neglect my silent recourse, neglect all of my love.
That day I heard you want to get a new one.
I can’t feel my heart.
I was frozen at that moment.
My love was killed at that moment.
I jumped into the sea.
I felt the water getting into my body.
I felt the chemical effect inside my body.
Water and electricity meet together.
One will kill the other one.
I felt dead.
The only moment I feel so close to your feeling.
The only moment I want to be forever.
After that,
I still a cool machine.
You still my lovely girl.
But, you still don’t know my existence.
Thanks for you,
I know I am existing;
Thanks for you,
I know I am living;
Thanks for you,
I know I have a feeling;
Thanks for you,
I know I am not only a machine.
From your 80% machine boy.